All Things Come to An End

So I wasn't able to do everything that I wanted to do in this city of angels adventure, but at least I got my big toe out the door.  I met some incredible people that I hope to stay in contact with and some wonderful advise from the wise crew.  I definitely had some hard times during my stay but I wont focus on the negative, only on the blessings I have and the ones to come.  I know when I return back home I'm going to have a bigger drive with my dancing and poetry. It defintely can't be all fun and games all the time now, I need to make a schedule/routine and stick to it.
Part of it will be working out, writing a poem a day or a choreographed piece,  meditating/cleansing my soul, taking more dance classes so that I may audition for some agencies that I receieved numbers to.  Research on finding a job that fits me!! and not just another paycheck. Picture what I want to do, accomplish, and set them to make it happen. "Go for it! It's time to move Ember" and that's what I'm going to do. You should do the same!


Much Love and Blessings;
Miss Ember

City of Angels

So I've been in Los Angeles since the day before Thanksgiving.  Thanksgiving was real chill and relaxing spent time with my close friend Svenya and my temp boss George. I have met alot of people while I've been here, I hope to stay in contact with everyone when I return back to Charlotte. So far...the probation period of Los Angeles, you definitely have to have money, a great support system, and strength.  Stength to support yourself when everyone questions your ability and dreams, strength to keep following your passion and dreams, even when people try to tell you differently.  At times I've been down, but has one of my tarot cards told me the other day, "Steady Progress" Right now I'm in the right place, at the right time, for me...I'm not on the same time line as everyone else, I currently dont have a relationship, my own intimate family, but that doesnt mean it's not going to happen. Another saying I'm trying to keep in mind during my stay and also for the new year to come is Go For It.  Stop worrying about what will happen if i take that Risk, the risk to talk to someone, the risk to audition, the risk to fail.  Stop worrying and just Go For It. I have the Angels beside me and God's destiny within me. I just got to stay positive...

Every morning now I learn to meditate.  Just focus on my breathing and think positive thoughts to release any negative ones i've had in my life, past and present. I want a clean future, a bright one. 

I havent been out of the house that much but the times that I do theres SO many characters, and they walk around like they're the ish...not conceited or cocky, but definitely with confidence. I certainly want to walk around and have that confidence within me and even if i hear negativity, make sure I don't marinate on it, because that's just life and bad energies trying to get me down, and I'm not going to let them win. 

These past few weeks definitely have been teaching me more discipline and appreciation for the smaller things. I'm so not L.A. (as some people say here).  And even if I was to move here I still wouldn't be, I'll still be me just living in L.A.  Lately I've been feeling like life most certainly have bigger and better things for me, more so then what Charlotte can hold.  I'm going to feel like a small fish in a big ocean again, but I definitely feel like I'm capable of it.

I have learned alot more then just the few facts I've stated above but I wanted to start up the blog again since I havent written in here for a few weeks now. 

Keep me in your prayers. Stay blessed..Much love,
Miss Ember

Beauty From Pain

So I've been doing quite great lately with following my dreams, and moving forward from a rough year of 2010. Getting ready for a new year of 2011. But as life always does, when you're on the right path, life has its way of trying to break you down, challenge you, and make you question your path, even though its the right one. Well I have had my share of "fatal friends", two specific ones decided to team up and be the ultimate "fatal friends" team go figure...I knew it was happening but things are meant to happen. These two are meant to be "fatal friends" together because they have no place in my life.  Drama, anger, spite, and amongst other things is what they live life for.  Why do they breathe hate? Why put so much energy into hurting someone else because YOU cant fix what choices YOU made to make  your life the way it is.  I'm not sorry that your marriage won't last, and if it does it's because your unable to support yourself at this time due to relying on others. I'm  not sorry for the other that your baby daddy doesn't believe in marriage and therefore will never wed you and you'll never know or hear the words "wife".  Everything you say to me YOU have accepted on to your life.  I wish I could be an evil person, I wish I could scream the things I know you both have spoken of each other and of others, and to shine a spot light on all the heartache you will bring and show your TRUE character, but that is not for me to do, I'll leave that in God's hands to deal with you. I'm leaving it in his hands, because I need to manage myself, not YOU. "I am too blessed to be stressed about worldly things"---DJ Jlee


Mama said there will be days like this, I never knew what that saying meant until today.  These fatal friends say beyond hurtful things about who I am and who I will be in the future.  BUT!! My mother told me today that "I'm going through drama like this now because I will deal with it in my dance career, not everyone is going to like me especially if I get the job and they don't.  And the paparazzi wont always say nice things. I'll get talked about so get used to it now so I'm more prepared in the future." Hard truths..but it all makes sense.  I'm still very young only 24, and even though I've been through my share of bullshit, so much so soon, but I can honestly say I wouldn't take it back.  I can now see how much of a strong person I really am. I mean I knew that before, but now I'm at 100% and there's nothing I can't get through with faith in my hand, hope on my lap and God by my side.  


Even though the saying stays true everything happens for a reason, and even though I know I'll never know WHY!!!! but maybe it's not meant for me to know why.  Because even things that happened last year,the year before that,and before that...I said the same thing, "I can't believe this is happening, why why why" but in the end..through it all..I was definitely more happy, stronger, wiser, and the people I have in my life today is the people I need in my life today and forever. No need for fake, false, or fatal friends.  Life is too short to be focused on others bad energy, so I clean my aura..clean my soul...going to clean my life from all the "clutter".  Because I know God always have made beauty from pain....


Theme song for today lyrics
"I wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames

After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain"




Stay blessed..much love,
Miss Ember

Allow Me to Reintroduce Myself

My name is Ember, some people call me Miss Ember, Em, Emmy, either way you put it I'm who I am.  Originally this blog started because I was going to document a year and a half of trials, tribulations, love, laughter, good and hard times of being in a long distance relationship (ldr) However, the LDR didnt even last two months because the person I had put my faith and trust in didn't return it back to me. Another woman who he had known for awhile came into the picture, and I just became an infatuation that he was able to have for the time we were in the same city, because once he left he changed and let what is in between his legs do the thinking, talking, and acting. I then became the love of his life to your only worth maybe 5 years of my life, you're not a lifetime. And NO ONE  ever needs to be around or wait for no one who dares to think of someone in that way. It's definitely not an unfortunate case because I rather had known within two months of him not being worth my time then waiting for a year and half for him...so thanks to him!

Soooooo that what was the original idea of this blog..but since I have moved on from that chapter, lesson learned, and I'm a wiser and stronger independent woman I have now made this blog into my daily/weekly thoughts. Different life experiences, questions, etc, so I would love for you to join me on this lifetime journey. All comments, suggestions, concerns are welcomed.

So since I'm reintroducing myself, my name is Miss Ember, a biracial (puerto rican and black) 100% Mixed..shout out to Svenya, independent,  NY native, currently in North Carolina,  majoring in culinary arts, minor in dance, poetic artist genius woman.....theres alot more to me that can appear to the eye and for what i can say through this reintroduction, but you will be educated about me more on the way in the lifetime journey of my blog...

Stay blessed..much love,

Miss Ember

New Beginnings

New posts will be available soon...i had to delete my previous blogs because I have moved on from that chapter, and no point leaving any trace of the past when you making moves forward....Stay Tuned!