Beauty From Pain

So I've been doing quite great lately with following my dreams, and moving forward from a rough year of 2010. Getting ready for a new year of 2011. But as life always does, when you're on the right path, life has its way of trying to break you down, challenge you, and make you question your path, even though its the right one. Well I have had my share of "fatal friends", two specific ones decided to team up and be the ultimate "fatal friends" team go figure...I knew it was happening but things are meant to happen. These two are meant to be "fatal friends" together because they have no place in my life.  Drama, anger, spite, and amongst other things is what they live life for.  Why do they breathe hate? Why put so much energy into hurting someone else because YOU cant fix what choices YOU made to make  your life the way it is.  I'm not sorry that your marriage won't last, and if it does it's because your unable to support yourself at this time due to relying on others. I'm  not sorry for the other that your baby daddy doesn't believe in marriage and therefore will never wed you and you'll never know or hear the words "wife".  Everything you say to me YOU have accepted on to your life.  I wish I could be an evil person, I wish I could scream the things I know you both have spoken of each other and of others, and to shine a spot light on all the heartache you will bring and show your TRUE character, but that is not for me to do, I'll leave that in God's hands to deal with you. I'm leaving it in his hands, because I need to manage myself, not YOU. "I am too blessed to be stressed about worldly things"---DJ Jlee


Mama said there will be days like this, I never knew what that saying meant until today.  These fatal friends say beyond hurtful things about who I am and who I will be in the future.  BUT!! My mother told me today that "I'm going through drama like this now because I will deal with it in my dance career, not everyone is going to like me especially if I get the job and they don't.  And the paparazzi wont always say nice things. I'll get talked about so get used to it now so I'm more prepared in the future." Hard truths..but it all makes sense.  I'm still very young only 24, and even though I've been through my share of bullshit, so much so soon, but I can honestly say I wouldn't take it back.  I can now see how much of a strong person I really am. I mean I knew that before, but now I'm at 100% and there's nothing I can't get through with faith in my hand, hope on my lap and God by my side.  


Even though the saying stays true everything happens for a reason, and even though I know I'll never know WHY!!!! but maybe it's not meant for me to know why.  Because even things that happened last year,the year before that,and before that...I said the same thing, "I can't believe this is happening, why why why" but in the end..through it all..I was definitely more happy, stronger, wiser, and the people I have in my life today is the people I need in my life today and forever. No need for fake, false, or fatal friends.  Life is too short to be focused on others bad energy, so I clean my aura..clean my soul...going to clean my life from all the "clutter".  Because I know God always have made beauty from pain....


Theme song for today lyrics
"I wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames

After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain"




Stay blessed..much love,
Miss Ember